I hate the fact that i am a girl..

I hate the fact that i am the youngest..

I hate the fact that i don't have the opportunity to voice out my opinion..

I hate the fact that i am born..sometimes..

I do agree that both of my parents are to busy..But do they know that i am too?? Have they ever once ask me-how's school?? Had your dinner?? No..Not at all.. It's clearly seen that as i am growing up, i am getting further away from my parents.. Do they know how happy i am whenever they call me with the thought that they will ask me what i am doing?? If i were to be compared with both of them, i am much more busier.. With assignments, homeworks, studies..But, do they ever see my efforts for once?? You blame me whenever i get poor result.. You compare me with other clever child..Why can't you accept the fact that you daughter is just an ordinary kid..?? She's not a clever student.. I really hate to be compared.. I know that they are disappointed with my 'o' level results..But do they know that i am too.. I take it that new school=new life.. My resolution is to do well in everything eventhough i am struggling with a subject call Autocad and Statics?? I even tried to be a better person..Frankly speaking, i am not good in IT related things..But what can i do?, since i get E8 for my English i have to..Why?? Because you don't allow me to go to a private school..Ok..Let's not bring up the past matters..Life has to move on.. Ever heard of Everything happens for a reason..Maybe you don't see the reason now, but when it is finally revealed, it will blow you away?? Hopefully it's true..

Lately, i have been arguing with my mum every single day.. I show a brave front in front of her due to my ego..But did she know that i am crying on the inside whenever she called me stupid.. ?I may not be your favourite child but i do have feelings..Unlike everyone else, i hate holidays.. During each and every holidays, i am being treated like a maid.. I am being asked to clean here and there.. Do all parents know the different between a girl(child) and a maid?? I still need to do the house chores even though i am sick.. Is money that important to adults?? Then i rather be a kid back where you don't even have to think about all this..I am sick of everything.. I need to let go all my problems..But the question is, to who.. ?? Will you still vomit your problem to your friend(s) who has been using you for years and you just got to know it this wonderful year or a friend who wants to lose contacts with you or a friend that is doubting your trust..Trust me, i have that kind of friends..

Sometimes, i envy some people who have a wonderful family..How i wish i can have one..Is this how my growing path, destiny should be?? I want nothing from my parents..I just want them to understand me,love and care for me..That's all..Am i asking too much..??