Hello people.. At last, i am back to blogging..=)

Well, at the very least i have a spare time to spare after 5 months of hiatus.. Well, i doesn't really matter to me most because i have no idea if anyone is reading it or not. Be prepared cause this time round, my post will be long.. That depends if anything comes in my mind..=)

As you all know, this is my second year. My final year. Which means that i can't afford to lose focus in studies but too bad, i just did. I hate the fact that i need to do autocad, i hate the fact that i need to do long calculations like POA and lastly, i hate the fact that i am having an inconsiderate teacher.

She was the one that is gone for 2 freaking weeks and left us with a teacher that is nothing related to that module.. So, it would make sense if we did mistakes for 2 weeks since there is no one to correct us . Instead of saying 'you did your best', you said that you don't want to mark our papers just because we had too many careless mistakes. What on earth is that supposed to mean? My exams is in a few weeks time and as from today, she's stressing us out. How can we? Does she really think that rushing us would make us more understand in her module? Everything seems easier for her.. But not for us. For me. And just because of that, i have no confidence in doing well for my exams. I swear..

That is why when people keep asking me where i want to go after i graduate, I'll be just..keeping quiet. That will be the most difficult question for me to answer right now. I will be lying if i said to you that i don't want to continue my studies at Poly. But look at me now, I'm stress. I'm stress with school and life. It's tough being a female, women, friend and daughter. Why? Because it will be always me who will be thinking of them but not them thinking of me. Frankly, I'm tired.. I'm tired of all this.

No, I'm not complaining or regretting about anything. It's just that my life doesn't turn out like what i wanted. Be a good friend, listener, student, daughter. If some people can have a good life, why can't i. I envy some people who can get along with their dearest quite well. Some people have a best friend that they can cry on. But not me. I will be just keeping my opinions to myself. Maybe it's my fate or maybe there's a reason behind it. I'll just have to think positive and be positive.. What matters most now is, i should not aim high like used to do. I don't wanna be disappointed agin. Once is enough. Mark my words.!