Not sure if i have any readers on my blog. Thought my blog would be dead till i-don't-know when but i have to tonight. 

Recently, i have so many thoughts going on in my mind. School problems, family problems, stress etc.

I can handle everything except for one thing. Just one stupid thing that i think you might think but i am being sensitive. 

I mean at this age, no doubt that will be sensitive or i can say, extra sensitive? 

I love having long conversation with my dad but not nowadays? why?

1)"My friend's daughter earn 4K a month"

2)" When will you be graduating? "

3) "If you choose to same cause as my friends' daughter, you can also earn 4K"

Shouldn't you as a parent be supporting whatever path your children wants.? Yes you should but sadly, it doesn't happen in my 'family'.

When my parents keep asking the same thing, i have this wild thoughts that had been haunting me.

Am i a nuisance for them?

Am i your responsibility?

Am i really your child? Your own blood & flesh?

Back then, when i am disappointed with my o level's results, i told you i want to go to private school. But no, you strictly say no because you want me to start from scratch. Ok, i follow eventhough you know how much i hate ITE back then. Yes, childish me last time hated ITE so much because i thought it was a bad school. I though It's the end. We argued and didn't talk for almost a month because of this. 

"If you failed, start again. Don't choose the easy way out"

Someone said that to me and i thought that person is right. So i end up in ITE not as what i expected. My 2 years there was so fun. I am far from stress over there.

GPA? 3 and above. 

Happy? Absolutely. 

Then i start another phase of life in Poly. 

GPA? Far from 3. 

Happy? Mixed

Cursed the person who told me that poly is a relaxing school and stress-free

I started getting more and more stress in poly but did my parents know? NO

Not even once you ask me,"How's school?" "Are you coping well?"

A simple thing like that can bring a smile on the face.

I don;t know if you have any intention to ask then but oh well, i am almost done in Poly so i tried not to think much.

You might think that maybe my parents did that because they wants me to be independent. Even independent people need to be supported. Not financially.You know that-kind-of-support.

It sucks to have these in my life. I keep thinking and it affect my school. There's once where i feel like quitting school and left everything behind. But i could not just give up halfway. I am not that kind of person. But as for now, i have to put on a mask to show them everything is alright. Why? Because i hate to be looked down especially with my parents.

If i were to ask them 1 thing, i would ask,

"Do money bring you happiness rather than seeing you own flesh and blood happy?"